This has been a very hard week for me. Its been an emotional roller coaster. Its like my mind knows next week is Stevan's and mine 8th wedding anniversary and then 6th month since he's been gone and I feel like everything is falling apart all over again.
Last week the air conditioner quit. Had the guy come out and cleaned the coils out for me... fixed. Ive been up since 3am because I woke up hot... yep it quit again and I can't get the fan to run. So I'll be making another call in about 4 hours to have him come back out.
Before that its been the lawnmower, that won't run, for either the belt won't stay on or something else doesn't work on it.
I hate this feeling of not only being alone but feeling useless. I hate this feeling that I'm drowning and I can't get out. I hate these feelings of feeling lost and helpless. I feel like I've been so strong for so long I'm about to break.
Us before Myeloma
Celebrating our 5 year Anniversary a few days early. Wow! We've both changed over the past few years.
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